I lost count of how many times I checked my emails this morning despite usually struggling to open them even once. After seeing class cancellations posted all over Facebook due to COVID-19 I was sure swimming was going to follow suit. I hate to say I was a little hopeful it would be cancelled too, I've been finding the classes exhausting recently. Nothing came though, so we thought nothing more of it and headed to our lesson.
It was only when we were getting ready with the one other mum and her little boy, that I wondered if I was doing the right thing. Should we really be there? The hotel where we swim was a ghost town, the lessons before us and after just as quiet as our lesson and the usual battle for showers and space to get changed all gone. I honestly felt like we'd shown up to the hotel at 6am rather than mid-morning.
Despite feeling a little out of place it was a great swimming lesson, my little boy was so much more confident in the quiet pool. He was so good I couldn't deny him the usual coffee/babyccino stop after, but again, the usually bustling coffee shop was deserted. I again wondered, should we really be here?
I couldn't fault the cleanliness around the hotel and coffee shop, it really helped us make the most of our small piece of normality. But as we got home, one thing felt clear, times of change are ahead. I began to feel guilty that I wanted swimming cancelled because as and when it stops, we'll miss it for sure. But whatever is ahead and however much I debate what we should and shouldn't be doing, I know I'll treasure this swimming lesson. In fact I'll even look forward to swimming again and the routine it brings to the chaotic life of a toddler.